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Death is inevitable.

This much is certain.  There is a silence beneath everything that grows,  a stillness waiting to reclaim what it once relinquished.  One lives, and in living, begins to vanish . Dying - that peculiar fear embedded in us like a splinter under the skin. We do not speak of it often, though it governs our days. It is not the event that terrifies, but the absence. To be - and then not. To exist with memory, sensation, voice  and then to be reduced to… nothing. A name, a photograph, a smell clinging to someone’s coat. It does not matter how we resist. It comes, not out of cruelty, but out of something more mechanical. Indifferent. Incomprehensible. Like a bureaucratic system that never explains itself. And what is worse we are so entangled in the minutiae of daily life that we forget: we are temporary. In the middle of conversation, in the middle of a sip of coffee, in the middle of existing  the machinery can stop. Without warning. Perhaps even now. Time does not wai...

Esprit Murmurant #9

i'll be waiting till your heart stops breathing.

Maybe the spell didn't work...

It's been about a month. Maybe it takes more time but I'm slowly realizing that it isn't worth the wait anymore. I don't wanna wait for few more months, or years or even decades. I may sound impaitent but I think it's best for me to just let go of this and move on. This obession has turn me into something I hate.  And if there's ever a chance it will work, I'll keep moving on with life.

Esprit Murmurant #8

If time ever erases us, I vow to leave fingerprints in the stars, so the cosmos itself remembers: I belonged to you- before names, before fate, before the world knew we existed.

Esprit Murmurant #7

If killing doesn't please me then perhaps burden won't.

Esprit Murmurant #6

my heart wants what it wants. but it will never accept the reality. 

Esprit Murmurant #5

I want to run away... or as they say "M.I.A."  But I can't.  I'm afraid to be alone even though I've been lonely for so long. I'm afraid of change but I want the pain to be taken away.  I'm just here stuck in this rot.  I can't get up since it's too much.  I'm slowly fading as the flames gets bigger.