I Didn't Participate in Anything for My Senior Year and I'm Not Walking on Graduation

 As you can see in the title, yes it's true and you're probably calling me "lame" right now but I don't really care because I am lame. I'm not proud of it of course but I'm also not disappointed. You might be wondering as you're reading this blog, why am I not doing anything for my senior year, my last year. Well, it all comes down to my decisions and for me only. 

High school is a time to find new friends, participate in a curricular activity, go to school dances like prom, find colleges, take some AP classes, etc. It is also a time when you lose friends, you find yourself, you are more mature, and you make on your own responsibilities. However, when it comes to senior year, most seniors would make the most out of it. They do anything to make sure they have those moments and make memories because obviously, it's their last year but when it comes to my senior year, I don't make the most out of it and I'm not going to. 

The reason why I didn't participate in many activities like homecoming or school dances is that at the beginning of my sophomore year, I didn't really have as many friends and I felt all alone, It was my downhill year I would call it. Fast forward towards almost the end of sophomore year. The lockdown/pandemic began because of covid and ever since that lockdown and not going to school face to face for 2 years (I'm doing online school this year again), I just became so disconnected from the school and the people there. 

I decided not to walk on graduation because I'm not walking on a school that failed me, that I'm so disconnected from and full of people who were transphobic to me. All I care about is just passing and moving on forward with my life. I know it will be my last day in that school and my last time seeing my classmates again if I walk but what's the point though? Do you think that after two years of not going to school face to face, I suddenly pop up for my graduation on the last day? Absolutely not, I just think that would be a waste of time and it would be unnecessary do to so. Also, I am not paying $100 for a gap and gown. 

In conclusion, this is a choice that I have been thinking about for a while now and it came to the conclusion that I shouldn't walk and do things for my senior year. Plus graduation ceremony is boring anyway and I would fall asleep through the end of it. By the way, my parents are totally fine with me not walking, as long as I pass high school they would be proud of me either way. I worked my ass off to pass high school and I still can earn my degree whether I walk or not.